Dear Allison,
I really want to start making an involved effort in making my life better. I want to hear new music, and I want to read more (although I've been doing pretty good on the front, although I don't know if Twilight counts toward my goal), I want to get healthy and meet new people. I need a change so badly. Maybe I should go on a mission trip... I just have a hard time convincing myself that I deserve to go on one, or that it isn't hypocritical of me. I guess "deserve" isn't the right word, or the right way to put it, but it probably gets my point across. I don't really know how to talk about this... I don't know. I just haven't found it yet. I haven't looked for it yet either... I haven't been able to understand it or comprehend it so how can I believe it?
I'm not happy, but I'm too apathetic to change. Why am I like this?
-Allison
P.S. - I love this so much:
I've found it
What?
Eternity
The fusion of sun and sea
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I think you should go on a mission trip, Allison, you need to understand that it's less about what you deserve and more about the people that you will be serving wherever you go. What do those people deserve? They deserve more than they are getting and if you don't go because you don't feel worthy or feel hypocritical then that is one less person that is helping these people that need it desperately. Something you need to know, when I go on a mission trip I don't walk up to every person and say Jesus loves you, it's about experiencing God's love through serving others and Allison, you do deserve that. That being said if you go on a mission trip and you are not a Christian, you are not being hypocritical. However I would go with an open mind and heart because that would make it easier for God to step in. If you really do want to change who you are I think this is a huge step. It really changed my life in 2005 and missions is really my heart now. I think it would be great if you would go with me this summer. Re-reading this it may have sounded a little harsh, so don't read it like that, read it like i'm pleading with you to go with me. Also, I really love you lots.
ReplyDeletehey, I dont know if you check this very often but I can't always get ahold of you by phone.. 2 things
ReplyDelete1) Have you downloaded the Slumdog Millionaire Sountrack
2) Any chance you want to work out with me on Tuesdays and Thursday, i'm looking for someone to do it with me so that I will actually do it...let me know
um... you tagged mandy moore in your first post. is that a topic that you expect to return to often?
ReplyDelete*Hopefully* CONGRATS MANDY MOORE N RYAN ADAMS!!! LUV Y'ALL!!! I HOPE U GUYZ LUV B-N MARRIED
ReplyDeleteKarla,
ReplyDelete1) I have not
2) ...Sure...........
PS, you didn't sound harsh.