The cash machine is blue and green
For a hundred in twenties and a small service fee
I could spend three dollars and sixty-three cents
On Diet Coca-Cola and unlit cigarettes
I wonder why we listen to poets
When nobody gives a fuck
How hot and sorrowful
This machine begs for luck
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I want a good life
With a nose for things
A fresh wind and bright sky
To enjoy my suffering
A hole without a key
If I break my tongue
Speaking of tomorrow
How will it ever come?
All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I'm down on my hands and knees
Every time the doorbell rings
I shake like a toothache
When I hear myself sing
All my lies are only wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new
I would like to salute
The ashes of American flags
And all the fallen leaves
Filling up shopping bags

Wilco - a genuinely gratifying experience

God loves you just the way you are.

But he loves you too much to let you stay that way.

Honors presentation tomorrow.

Research symposium on Friday.

Texas Dietetic Association to present research on Monday in Austin. All hail. (say it with a southern accent...)

I want to go to Japan like it's my effin job....effin job.

I went to church today for the first time in like 4-6 years.

I wish the Gieco Gecco would give me his baby reading glasses. So tiny.

I'm thinking of having a sign off saying for when I write and when I'm face-to-face with people and saying goodbye. How does this sound:
Godspeed and may love conquer all.

Imagine I am yelling after you fondly as we part. Maybe a little wave and certainly a sparkle in my eye. I think I like it. Suggestions?

Currently, for my internship, I'm working with a company called ECI - Early Childhood Intervention. I get to go into the homes of kids 0-3 years old with developmental issues. Usually MHMR kids, but sometimes I'll see kids with short bowel syndrome and a lot of times failure to thrive. FTT can lead to developmental issues for the kids too. It's great that we get to go in and help these kids with catch-up growth to get them on the same level as healthy kids their age, and hopefully avoid any of the issues that come along with their personal case.
I love it.
I can't even explain how amazing it is to go into these homes and help these kids. The people who work there - social workers, dietitians, nurses, PT, OT, speech path, etc - do so much good that it's hard to even imagine.
Man, I think I finally actually know what I want to do after graduation. Amazing.


Godspeed and may love conquer all.

I'll probably wait too long...

Dear Allison,

I really want to start making an involved effort in making my life better. I want to hear new music, and I want to read more (although I've been doing pretty good on the front, although I don't know if Twilight counts toward my goal), I want to get healthy and meet new people. I need a change so badly. Maybe I should go on a mission trip... I just have a hard time convincing myself that I deserve to go on one, or that it isn't hypocritical of me. I guess "deserve" isn't the right word, or the right way to put it, but it probably gets my point across. I don't really know how to talk about this... I don't know. I just haven't found it yet. I haven't looked for it yet either... I haven't been able to understand it or comprehend it so how can I believe it?

I'm not happy, but I'm too apathetic to change. Why am I like this?

-Allison

P.S. - I love this so much:

I've found it
What?
Eternity
The fusion of sun and sea

This most likely won't last long

So hello again internets. I haven't really been that great to you lately. I used to be all obsessed with you, but that had a lot to do with a dumb boy. I'm over at Karla's little baby house. It is icing. We are watching that movie with Mandy Moore...How to Deal. And we are drinking some juice. I am burning some Mason Jennings. It's supposed to change my life. I sort of can't wait, I need my life to be changed.